Happy Birthday Pedro Pascal....

 

Happy Birthday to the One....the Only Pedro Pascal....

I do not know you but you, sir, are adorbs.....

Happy Palm Sunday Everyone!

 

Happy Palm Sunday Everyone!  

John 12:13. “They took branches of palm trees and went forth to meet him, and cried, Hosanna! Blessed is he who comes in the name of the Lord!”

Honestly, God and Jesus have blessed me more than I could ever imagine.  How may you ask?  For one...I am alive and still plugging away.  I wish there was some aspects of my situation that would be a little better, but I know in time things will get better.  Just have to stay positive and faithful.  Been trying to pray more and looking for a church to attend.  Even though I do believe God is everyone and He is there for everyone who seeks him.  But I feel that maybe if I seek out a church; I will find a spiritual family possibly.  But even still.... I pray as much as I can....and I hope sometimes God forgives me when I fall asleep while conversing with him.  Yes, it happens to me all the time.  Yet, when I googled what happens....this comes up; so, I feel a little at peace.

“What's happening is you're relaxing and you're throwing your cares on the Lord, as you should. It's not unusual, especially if we're tired, that when we do that, we get sleepy. There's an old adage that if you fall asleep while you're saying your prayer, your guardian angel finishes it for you."

I do hope everyone is having a restful and relaxing Sunday.  I have to be honest; I forgot to publish a post a few weeks back.  So, it was published today; along with this one.

So some life updates....I am now working fulltime at the library.  I love it so much....it feels like I was created for this job.  Like my life was leading up to this career.  I feel like Belle from Beauty and the Beast....when the Beast gifts her a library with all the books......

My job is amazing...my boss is amazing....and my co-workers are amazing.  This job is the right fit for me.  I love it so much.  My other job laid me off which allowed me to find this job and it feels like a better fit for me.  I will definitely post more about my job in future posts. 

As for everything else....I am still trying to get a steady ground in various things.  I shelved my book for a few weeks but will soon start up again.  I have a ton of ideas and details to add to the book.  I will not give up on it no matter what.  I will continue to post about this struggle as well.

I am going to sign off now...hope everyone who is reading this is well and having a wonderful day.

Boy, What Can Happen in a Couple of Weeks.....

   

 

 Sorry I haven't been on here blogging.  Things have been extremely busy since the end of December 2022.  Where to begin....I lost my job in December....well it was more of a laid off.  Without notice, email, meeting, etc  Which is okay.  I do start another job soon and it is a really good job.  I also have continued to work on my book but have been distracted by various things like trying not to stress about bills and take a positive approach to my current job situation.  It is hard but I think with my faith in God and faith in myself; I will be back on track real soon.

    As for other things happening in my life.....I am selling my house and also put in a offer on a smaller home that is not on a mountain.  Do not get me wrong; I love where I am living but with the ongoing development; along with a few other things....I have to do what is best for me.  I am tired of being broke and I am tired of being stressed.  I feel like God is directing my life in another direction.  Which I feel is a good thing.  So now I am packing, going through items that have some memories, and then putting the boxes in a storage locker.  Some of the stuff belonged to my parents which makes it hard for me.  I know they are not disappointed in my decision in selling their home. Actually, I think they would be really proud of me because I am making a well thought out decision; rather than it be based on emotions.  Plus, I am really wanting to sell as soon as possible but I am not desperate.  Two guys came to the house and told my wonderful realtor a price that is way below my standards.  Yes, I have standards.  

    So, to conclude.....I lost my job but have a new one lined up.  I am selling my house but have a new one in contingent. I will continue to update you as time goes on.....

Happy New Year!!!

 

Happy New Year from the broke and unemployed!

    I hope whoever is reading this has had a happy and blessed New Year so far.  

    Yes, I am starting 2023 with no job, no car, probably no house...that is still a pending situation.  Right now, as we speak; I am looking into realtors and will most likely be selling the house my parents entrusted to me.  I am sad about this decision, but I am relieved too.  I have been carrying so much responsibility that I am not happy.  Yet, I feel like the last two years have been a growing period.

    So, lets go back a to my last post and work from there.  After Christmas, things were okay.  I was diagnosed with Endometriosis.  I had been having some strange things that were happening to my body, but I thought it was either a cancer issue or long-term COVID issues. Thank God it was not cancer. I was having bad PMS, hair loss, lack in energy, stressed, and feeling like crap.  Cramps have been terrible for months and even weeks after my PMS.  Doctor stated that it was Endometriosis, but I needed to get into a 'ladies' doctor" ASAP.  No problem.  I started going to work looking for one.  I also started B/C to help with everything else.  Let's say my hair is now growing back and feels like my hair has thicken up quite a bit.  I still have cramps, but they are now manageable.  I started that search for a Gyno; I kept asking my job to please let me know if there will be a lay off. 

     Keep in mind; I asked the second week of December.  No response.  Come two days after Christmas; I asked again....and again no response. There was no transparency, no emails, no communication through my old employer's message system we use for work at home people.  Nothing.  Come Friday, right before New Year's.  I get a notification for a schedule that was just published.  I go and look and see that I am not on the upcoming schedule.  I am pissed at this point.  I am beyond pissed and I even remember back in March of 2022; I asked the HR lady (we will call her A) if there are chances that I would be laid off.  She stated, "Lisa since you work in the Call Center; you will not".  If I knew then I would never have left my old employer.  So here I am writing you from my desktop and no longer have a job. Also, keep in mind that it was not just me; it was a whole lot of people who were shocked to be laid off.  I am so sour towards this company know and having sour feelings towards the person whose name is on the building (you can guess the country singer, and no I am not saying who it is.  You can guess for yourself). 

    So, after that shock, I started to ask what will happen to my insurance. The insurance is the reason why I left my old employer.  Since I kept relapsing COVID at the time; I wanted insurance because the trips to the hospital were putting me in debt.   This company that I use to work states that if I am laid off two pay cycles after my last check; I will have to pay them (my old job) to keep my insurance up and going.  First off, WTH, this company has laid me off.....without any meetings, emails, etc., and you want me to pay you (the company) money.... that I do not have....to keep my insurance going?  Really!  I have never really heard of this.  Get this.... if you are off only two pay cycles you will be able to do this.  If you are laid off longer than this; you will get the COBRA program. Most of you know that no one can afford the COBRA medical program; especially if you are laid off and getting only $200 a week from unemployment (at least here in TN).  Crazy thing is that I asked my manager (we will call her S) how long or if she needed me to let me know.  S states it would be based on call value on during the first week of layoffs that they will decide if and when they will start bringing people back. Again, you do not know if you will be off longer than two pay cycles.  S proceeded to delete people out of the systems/programs that are used for daily tasks putting an end to everyone's time at the company.  Shutting down all of the programs and deleting the laid off people, in my opinion, puts a seal on that the old company does not want us to return.  But that is my opinion.  

    I am now looking for a new job/career.  I am going to focus on that and continue to write my book as well.  Unfortunately, I did not make the 30-day challenge but that is life.  I tried. I had other obstacles come my way as well.  Such as that my car blew a turbo.  I have a warranty for it but I still have to pay some funds to the repair shop. Scott got a vehicle and no surprise to our luck; it is broken down and after only three days of driving it.  So, our luck sucks right now but I am still trying to stay positive that 2023 will be a better year for us.  Hopefully!!!

    Will write more in the coming days.  Take care.

Merry Christmas Everyone

Update:  So, I started writing this on Christmas Day, but got so preoccupied with different things going on that I just did not finish it.  Christmas was good and relaxing. Did not do much of anything except drink some wine and chilled out for the day.  We (my boyfriend, myself, and the dogs) opened gifts and enjoyed some time together.  Hope you all had a great Christmas - 12/27/2022

12/25/2022 - I hope everyone has a merry and blessed Christmas.  For the first time in a long time; I have the day off.  Well, I usually have Sundays off, but I have been working the last few months.  I am enjoying my time off with my boyfriend and my pups.  I am cooking in my crock pot a turkey which I hope turns out good.  I did manage to burn our lunch but between trying to cook some food and taking the dogs out for a walk.  No stress and no worries.   Remaking our lunch is now in progress. 

As for the book.  It is coming along.... slow but steady.  I don't think I will make my 30 days, but I am going to finish no matter what.

Here are some pictures of the day so far.

God Bless and have a wonderful Christmas.

Challenge Day 14 - Distractions....

        I started this post at 9 am and it is now 2:03 pm.  I got wrapped up doing other things. Frist thing I started doing was handwriting my book into my journal. Just dumping the story out of my head and onto paper.  I figure I will go into descriptive writing later in time.  I do wish I had yellow legal paper like George Lucas had when writing Star Wars.  Mind you, my book is definitely not Star Wars.  

         Then, my ADD self, started looking at my mom's cookbook collection and I have decided to go through these books and sell them.  Maybe at a cheap cost or do a 2 for 1 price.  Who knows if I will make some funds but at least I can try.  I can put the funds towards bills or just a small savings.  

            After I did that I started talking to my sister-in-law.  I was showing her doll clothes that I bought for my neice.  Yes, my niece asked for a doll for Christmas.  I know I am talking about saving money and then talking about Christmas.  But I wanted to stop and just let you know; I am writing and just got a bit distracted.  I am now going to head back to writing in my journal.  

I hope you all have a wonderful day. 

So Am I being Selfish?

Good Morning Everyone reading this.......

    Today is Tuesday and I am making some progress on the book. I am getting the ideas out, but I think I need to get more descriptive in my writing.  But I am proud of myself for getting going on this challenge.  I hope when I start typing everything out soon, and that I will be going into a descriptive detail of the story.  But this is a good challenge for me, and I am determined to complete it.  Now I did say 30-day challenge (and I am still sticking with that goal) but I am also sticking with the determination that I need to complete this book no matter how long it takes me.  I do want to try and get it published before the end of next year.  That is if it is worthy of publishing.

    As for the title of this blog "Am I being selfish"?  So, on Sunday, December 25, Christmas Day, is my day off.  I had a co-worker ask me to switch shifts.  I responded to her by saying "no".  Reason is that I worked every holiday this year and I worked when I had Covid-19 (when I was able to work).   When my day off landed on the 25; I decided that I will not work whatsoever.  Yet, I do feel bad saying no and I am sure someone would think it is for selfish reasons but with everything with my family, and the stress of personal issues.  I just need a break.  I wish I could break for longer than two days, but I cannot. Yet, I just want to do a Christmas movie marathon or a Star Wars marathon and chill.  I may not even cook.... who knows.  When you do not plan a day and just relax.... who knows what can happen.  I may watch the 24-hour marathon of A Christmas Story.  But the end goal on Christmas Day is to really do nothing but relax and enjoy the day off.  The stress can start back up on the 26th.  LOL.  If I do anything I am hoping to continue whatever I have typed out of this story.... if that makes sense.  I am hoping to get started typing on Thursday of this week. Old school me likes to write than type.  I trust in God and in the process.  

    I do not feel selfish in telling them I can't do something but on the other hand....I do feel bad.  I am the type of person that wants to help and make people happy.  So, yes, in telling someone no to something it makes me feel sad. I am working on this because in life you cannot please everyone. 

Hope you all are well.  I am just doing a "writing dump" in this post.