Happy Birthday Pedro Pascal....

 

Happy Birthday to the One....the Only Pedro Pascal....

I do not know you but you, sir, are adorbs.....

Happy Palm Sunday Everyone!

 

Happy Palm Sunday Everyone!  

John 12:13. “They took branches of palm trees and went forth to meet him, and cried, Hosanna! Blessed is he who comes in the name of the Lord!”

Honestly, God and Jesus have blessed me more than I could ever imagine.  How may you ask?  For one...I am alive and still plugging away.  I wish there was some aspects of my situation that would be a little better, but I know in time things will get better.  Just have to stay positive and faithful.  Been trying to pray more and looking for a church to attend.  Even though I do believe God is everyone and He is there for everyone who seeks him.  But I feel that maybe if I seek out a church; I will find a spiritual family possibly.  But even still.... I pray as much as I can....and I hope sometimes God forgives me when I fall asleep while conversing with him.  Yes, it happens to me all the time.  Yet, when I googled what happens....this comes up; so, I feel a little at peace.

“What's happening is you're relaxing and you're throwing your cares on the Lord, as you should. It's not unusual, especially if we're tired, that when we do that, we get sleepy. There's an old adage that if you fall asleep while you're saying your prayer, your guardian angel finishes it for you."

I do hope everyone is having a restful and relaxing Sunday.  I have to be honest; I forgot to publish a post a few weeks back.  So, it was published today; along with this one.

So some life updates....I am now working fulltime at the library.  I love it so much....it feels like I was created for this job.  Like my life was leading up to this career.  I feel like Belle from Beauty and the Beast....when the Beast gifts her a library with all the books......

My job is amazing...my boss is amazing....and my co-workers are amazing.  This job is the right fit for me.  I love it so much.  My other job laid me off which allowed me to find this job and it feels like a better fit for me.  I will definitely post more about my job in future posts. 

As for everything else....I am still trying to get a steady ground in various things.  I shelved my book for a few weeks but will soon start up again.  I have a ton of ideas and details to add to the book.  I will not give up on it no matter what.  I will continue to post about this struggle as well.

I am going to sign off now...hope everyone who is reading this is well and having a wonderful day.

Boy, What Can Happen in a Couple of Weeks.....

   

 

 Sorry I haven't been on here blogging.  Things have been extremely busy since the end of December 2022.  Where to begin....I lost my job in December....well it was more of a laid off.  Without notice, email, meeting, etc  Which is okay.  I do start another job soon and it is a really good job.  I also have continued to work on my book but have been distracted by various things like trying not to stress about bills and take a positive approach to my current job situation.  It is hard but I think with my faith in God and faith in myself; I will be back on track real soon.

    As for other things happening in my life.....I am selling my house and also put in a offer on a smaller home that is not on a mountain.  Do not get me wrong; I love where I am living but with the ongoing development; along with a few other things....I have to do what is best for me.  I am tired of being broke and I am tired of being stressed.  I feel like God is directing my life in another direction.  Which I feel is a good thing.  So now I am packing, going through items that have some memories, and then putting the boxes in a storage locker.  Some of the stuff belonged to my parents which makes it hard for me.  I know they are not disappointed in my decision in selling their home. Actually, I think they would be really proud of me because I am making a well thought out decision; rather than it be based on emotions.  Plus, I am really wanting to sell as soon as possible but I am not desperate.  Two guys came to the house and told my wonderful realtor a price that is way below my standards.  Yes, I have standards.  

    So, to conclude.....I lost my job but have a new one lined up.  I am selling my house but have a new one in contingent. I will continue to update you as time goes on.....

Happy New Year!!!

 

Happy New Year from the broke and unemployed!

    I hope whoever is reading this has had a happy and blessed New Year so far.  

    Yes, I am starting 2023 with no job, no car, probably no house...that is still a pending situation.  Right now, as we speak; I am looking into realtors and will most likely be selling the house my parents entrusted to me.  I am sad about this decision, but I am relieved too.  I have been carrying so much responsibility that I am not happy.  Yet, I feel like the last two years have been a growing period.

    So, lets go back a to my last post and work from there.  After Christmas, things were okay.  I was diagnosed with Endometriosis.  I had been having some strange things that were happening to my body, but I thought it was either a cancer issue or long-term COVID issues. Thank God it was not cancer. I was having bad PMS, hair loss, lack in energy, stressed, and feeling like crap.  Cramps have been terrible for months and even weeks after my PMS.  Doctor stated that it was Endometriosis, but I needed to get into a 'ladies' doctor" ASAP.  No problem.  I started going to work looking for one.  I also started B/C to help with everything else.  Let's say my hair is now growing back and feels like my hair has thicken up quite a bit.  I still have cramps, but they are now manageable.  I started that search for a Gyno; I kept asking my job to please let me know if there will be a lay off. 

     Keep in mind; I asked the second week of December.  No response.  Come two days after Christmas; I asked again....and again no response. There was no transparency, no emails, no communication through my old employer's message system we use for work at home people.  Nothing.  Come Friday, right before New Year's.  I get a notification for a schedule that was just published.  I go and look and see that I am not on the upcoming schedule.  I am pissed at this point.  I am beyond pissed and I even remember back in March of 2022; I asked the HR lady (we will call her A) if there are chances that I would be laid off.  She stated, "Lisa since you work in the Call Center; you will not".  If I knew then I would never have left my old employer.  So here I am writing you from my desktop and no longer have a job. Also, keep in mind that it was not just me; it was a whole lot of people who were shocked to be laid off.  I am so sour towards this company know and having sour feelings towards the person whose name is on the building (you can guess the country singer, and no I am not saying who it is.  You can guess for yourself). 

    So, after that shock, I started to ask what will happen to my insurance. The insurance is the reason why I left my old employer.  Since I kept relapsing COVID at the time; I wanted insurance because the trips to the hospital were putting me in debt.   This company that I use to work states that if I am laid off two pay cycles after my last check; I will have to pay them (my old job) to keep my insurance up and going.  First off, WTH, this company has laid me off.....without any meetings, emails, etc., and you want me to pay you (the company) money.... that I do not have....to keep my insurance going?  Really!  I have never really heard of this.  Get this.... if you are off only two pay cycles you will be able to do this.  If you are laid off longer than this; you will get the COBRA program. Most of you know that no one can afford the COBRA medical program; especially if you are laid off and getting only $200 a week from unemployment (at least here in TN).  Crazy thing is that I asked my manager (we will call her S) how long or if she needed me to let me know.  S states it would be based on call value on during the first week of layoffs that they will decide if and when they will start bringing people back. Again, you do not know if you will be off longer than two pay cycles.  S proceeded to delete people out of the systems/programs that are used for daily tasks putting an end to everyone's time at the company.  Shutting down all of the programs and deleting the laid off people, in my opinion, puts a seal on that the old company does not want us to return.  But that is my opinion.  

    I am now looking for a new job/career.  I am going to focus on that and continue to write my book as well.  Unfortunately, I did not make the 30-day challenge but that is life.  I tried. I had other obstacles come my way as well.  Such as that my car blew a turbo.  I have a warranty for it but I still have to pay some funds to the repair shop. Scott got a vehicle and no surprise to our luck; it is broken down and after only three days of driving it.  So, our luck sucks right now but I am still trying to stay positive that 2023 will be a better year for us.  Hopefully!!!

    Will write more in the coming days.  Take care.

Merry Christmas Everyone

Update:  So, I started writing this on Christmas Day, but got so preoccupied with different things going on that I just did not finish it.  Christmas was good and relaxing. Did not do much of anything except drink some wine and chilled out for the day.  We (my boyfriend, myself, and the dogs) opened gifts and enjoyed some time together.  Hope you all had a great Christmas - 12/27/2022

12/25/2022 - I hope everyone has a merry and blessed Christmas.  For the first time in a long time; I have the day off.  Well, I usually have Sundays off, but I have been working the last few months.  I am enjoying my time off with my boyfriend and my pups.  I am cooking in my crock pot a turkey which I hope turns out good.  I did manage to burn our lunch but between trying to cook some food and taking the dogs out for a walk.  No stress and no worries.   Remaking our lunch is now in progress. 

As for the book.  It is coming along.... slow but steady.  I don't think I will make my 30 days, but I am going to finish no matter what.

Here are some pictures of the day so far.

God Bless and have a wonderful Christmas.

Challenge Day 14 - Distractions....

        I started this post at 9 am and it is now 2:03 pm.  I got wrapped up doing other things. Frist thing I started doing was handwriting my book into my journal. Just dumping the story out of my head and onto paper.  I figure I will go into descriptive writing later in time.  I do wish I had yellow legal paper like George Lucas had when writing Star Wars.  Mind you, my book is definitely not Star Wars.  

         Then, my ADD self, started looking at my mom's cookbook collection and I have decided to go through these books and sell them.  Maybe at a cheap cost or do a 2 for 1 price.  Who knows if I will make some funds but at least I can try.  I can put the funds towards bills or just a small savings.  

            After I did that I started talking to my sister-in-law.  I was showing her doll clothes that I bought for my neice.  Yes, my niece asked for a doll for Christmas.  I know I am talking about saving money and then talking about Christmas.  But I wanted to stop and just let you know; I am writing and just got a bit distracted.  I am now going to head back to writing in my journal.  

I hope you all have a wonderful day. 

So Am I being Selfish?

Good Morning Everyone reading this.......

    Today is Tuesday and I am making some progress on the book. I am getting the ideas out, but I think I need to get more descriptive in my writing.  But I am proud of myself for getting going on this challenge.  I hope when I start typing everything out soon, and that I will be going into a descriptive detail of the story.  But this is a good challenge for me, and I am determined to complete it.  Now I did say 30-day challenge (and I am still sticking with that goal) but I am also sticking with the determination that I need to complete this book no matter how long it takes me.  I do want to try and get it published before the end of next year.  That is if it is worthy of publishing.

    As for the title of this blog "Am I being selfish"?  So, on Sunday, December 25, Christmas Day, is my day off.  I had a co-worker ask me to switch shifts.  I responded to her by saying "no".  Reason is that I worked every holiday this year and I worked when I had Covid-19 (when I was able to work).   When my day off landed on the 25; I decided that I will not work whatsoever.  Yet, I do feel bad saying no and I am sure someone would think it is for selfish reasons but with everything with my family, and the stress of personal issues.  I just need a break.  I wish I could break for longer than two days, but I cannot. Yet, I just want to do a Christmas movie marathon or a Star Wars marathon and chill.  I may not even cook.... who knows.  When you do not plan a day and just relax.... who knows what can happen.  I may watch the 24-hour marathon of A Christmas Story.  But the end goal on Christmas Day is to really do nothing but relax and enjoy the day off.  The stress can start back up on the 26th.  LOL.  If I do anything I am hoping to continue whatever I have typed out of this story.... if that makes sense.  I am hoping to get started typing on Thursday of this week. Old school me likes to write than type.  I trust in God and in the process.  

    I do not feel selfish in telling them I can't do something but on the other hand....I do feel bad.  I am the type of person that wants to help and make people happy.  So, yes, in telling someone no to something it makes me feel sad. I am working on this because in life you cannot please everyone. 

Hope you all are well.  I am just doing a "writing dump" in this post.  

Sunday......Isaiah 7:14

Good Sunday Morning,

    Today is a great day but foggy here in TN.  God is good for sure.  Yesterday, I was able to get a few pages written for the book.  Yes, it is not an outline it is actually pages.  I did a writing dump and stayed focused, and I did not to struggle.  I felt whole when writing like it is my destiny.  I know God and Jesus is helping me; I can feel them both all-round me.  Cheering me on. I am so inspired by my faith that I hope this book does get published and helps someone discover that in tragedy; hope is still alive.  

    Speaking of hope.... the Bible verse for this Sunday (that I found) is "The Lord himself will give you a sign: The virgin will be with child and will give birth to a son and will call him Immanuel."(Isaiah 7:14), for me this verse speaks values of hope in the birth of Jesus.  I wanted to post this verse because it is the Christmas season and hope. The book I am writing is about hope and faith. Just the timing of everything seems so perfect.  Which makes me believe that God's timing is always perfect.

     This time of year, is really inspiring due to the fact that a person can carve out new beginnings, along with new possibilities.  I am focused on new beginnings and believe anything is possible.  I hope that 2023 will be a better year for everyone.  So, as I reflect on this verse and leave this post (a short post) for you all to read.  Just think and focus on the possibilities that may come your way.  Never doubt yourself and have faith in yourself.  Have faith in God and the wonderful direction that he is giving you in life.  I just feel so inspired right now, and I feel that new beginnings will be a positive for those who seek them out.  

Have a wonderful day everyone. 

Thankful Thursday.....

 Good morning to Everyone reading this.  

    Today is Thursday y'all.  Almost time for the weekend. Unfortunately, I work during the weekends and won't have a day off till Monday.  Usually, Sundays and Mondays are my days off but with Christmas, bills, etc. coming up; working the extra half days on Sundays will benefit me in the long run.  I like my job, but I would like to get this book that I am creating up and going but God's timing is always perfect. So, if I spend a little more sorting out some details and some outlines.... this will benefit me in the process.  Sometimes you have to go through the process to achieve a goal and in this case, it is starting and completing this book.  

    Reason that I am pressuring myself to do this book is because I am tired of starting stories and get tapped out or get stuck.  I know it is not good to pressure ones 'self but I feel a calling of some sort to complete this.  I know I do get hung up on editing and grammar; so, doing this book will stop me on being so hung up on the little things.  I am trying to aim for a goal and achieve it. I am also including in this 30-day challenge to include outlines and writing down thoughts.

    So yesterday I had an appointment and since I was completing some test for my doctor; writing was the last thing on my mind.  Trust me......these tests were not fun.  I am not going into detail but as being a woman.... let's say it sucked. My focus was elsewhere yesterday, and I am forgiving myself for not blogging or writing. Sometimes it is good to forgive yourself when things come up or you can't complete something.  I may be hard on myself, but I will forgive myself at the same time.  I am a human being and cannot be perfect.  I consider myself imperfect and it makes me unique and an individual.

     Also, wanted to address my post from the other day.  I meant to put some more into my confusion with The Last of Us and the Mandalorian shows.  Yes, I confused the months that they will air.  Meant to put that down in words. Yet, I am doing my job and trying to write in the time where I am not getting phone calls.  So, I left out a good chunk of thought out.  Hopefully, next time more thoughtful sentences will be scribed in the future.  

Going to end this here......hope you all are well. 

Happy Tuesday

 Good Morning World......Happy Tuesday.

    Alas, yesterday I did not work on my book or did much of anything.  Yes, I am disappointed, and you should hold me accountable for my actions. I am now working (my job) and doing make up work for this book in between calls. I got the main characters outlined as of right now.  There is still one character that I am not sure if I should include or not.  I am leaning towards putting this character into the story but still not sure.

  I am working on the Opening and Mid-Opening outlines now.  I am basically writing ideas, and random words down.  May not make sense to some of you but it is for me.  I think these two outlines are what they call as free writing.... unloading my brain and freeing up some creative space.  Which in the end it is a good thing.  I am honestly very hopeful about this story and that it is what the book is based about......HOPE.  This story did come to me in a dream; so, I am in deep thought about different details and aspects of the dream and how it can be developed into a story.  I am focusing on descriptions, words, details, and story development.

    But as you know......procrastination is a writers fall back, or so I heard.  Yes, yesterday I did not do anything but sit, relax, and think.  Yet, you have to understand something; I think I needed the time off to just sit and think.  Think of ideas, think of perspective.... calm my mind.  Sometimes it is good for the soul to stay inactive and to let your mind rest and wander.  Things over the last week in my life were crazy; so, some time not doing too much is what was needed.  Does not excuse me from the 30-day challenge but now I am going to have to do some make up time over the next few days to help push me back on track.  God be with me.

    As for yesterday nothing amazing happen.  My boyfriend told me he did not like the fact that I had Pedro Pascal as my wallpaper.  I like my phone to have a theme and if my case ever gets to my house the theme.... process will be complete.  It is a Mandalorian theme.... because "I heart Star Wars" a lot.   Also, I am gearing up for the Mandalorian which I thought was going to air in January, but it is in March.  This leads my feelings of excitement to feeling great disappointment.  

    The other show.... The Last of Us comes out in January.  I am not sure if I am going to watch it.  I have a fear of zombies or anything of that nature.  Back a few years ago....my cousin, De, her now husband Justin, and I went to see I am Legend.  That movie did not go over to well with me.  De was very apologetic, but I had nightmares for a month straight.  I will continue the zombie topic for another time but let's say if The Last of Us deals with that.... I am never going to be able to get through the episode. 

Well, that is it for now.  Have a great day.

Sunday....Psalm 18

         Today, I was going to write about budgeting and writing.  Yet, I want to focus on the fact that it is Sunday, and it is a day to go to church and be one with God.  Unfortunately, I do work from home on Sundays (yes, I know my butt belongs in Church), but I am honestly putting in an effort to have a better relationship with God and have been praying a lot more.  Now, I am putting an effort to understand the Bible better, but with my ADD....I tend to get confused.  But listen.... I am trying my hardest. Church is a great asset to have and a place to focus on.... but for those who work crazy hours and for those who move to an area where they are not sure where one is (ahem.... yours truly).  I believe that church can be in your house, nature, and even the bathroom....do not judge.... many of us find refuge in a quiet place and that could be your bathroom.  I believe that even though one does not go to Church regularly that as long as they communicate with God and Jesus......they will be okay. Communicating to God with your heart is probably the most freeing. By praying it helps me overcome stress and lets God know that I am thankful for everything I have in my life. Believe me I did not get this far and overcome so much without God or Jesus in my life.  Spirit and truths......heart and mind...y'all,

         So, I figured I would post one of my most absolute favorite passages in the Bible.  Honestly, some of my most favorite passages come from Psalm.  I am not sure why.... sometimes for me the Bible can be overwhelming, but I am determined to read it and understand it.   

My favorite passage is:

Psalm 18

        I love you, Lord, my strength.    

        The Lord is my rock, my fortress 

        and my deliverer, my God is my rock, 

         in whom I take refuge, my shield     

        and the horn of my salvation, my stronghold.

        I am not going to do a study of each word in this passage, but I tell you the words get me. "Strength", "Refuge", "Rock", "Salvation", and "Stronghold".  Words that stand out to me that God will always be here to hold you up and stand by you through life.  That no matter where we go or what we do.... God will get you to it.... He will get you through it.  So, no matter what life has in store for you; just remember someone spiritually is holding you up.  Please remember you are not alone, and that people love you.

    So, think about our last week and the week that is upon us.  Was our last week good?  Was it bad?  Was it super amazing?  Did we thank God for our family, life, and our gifts?  Did we pray through our toughest hours?  Did we think and thank God for our good days? 

     I am not sure how your last week went but I tell you mine was busy.  Busy enough for me to realize that in a few weeks' time it will be Christmas, and busy with some personal issues that I am not going to disclose on this blog.  Sorry folks.   Yet, I hope you made it through the week and spending some extra time with those around you because tomorrow is never promised.  I am sure you will hear that occasionally from me.  It is the hard lessons that I learned in life that make me say "tomorrow is never promised."  Reflecting on this statement makes me think about my parents and how much I miss them.  I am not angry about how the situation that caused my parents not to be here, but just really sad.  I do know one thing for sure; my parents are with me in my heart and in spirit.   I know they are cheering their loved ones to continue on and overcome our challenges.  

    Speaking of challenges.... I am lagging in my challenge that I set for myself. Yet, it is only day 2 of my writing a book in 30-days.  I have a majority of characters developed and I am now working on the plot.  Let's see how far we will go on this journey together.  

Hope you all have a blessed Sunday

<3 Lisa

I am doing a 30-day challenge.....

        So, I am going to write a book in 30-days. Yes, I know this sounds like a crazy idea since it is the Christmas season and all the craziness that comes with this time of year.  I am doing this because a family member who I admire is going to change their life in 30-days.  

        As well as you know, I admire God most of all, but this individual is a family member going through a rough time.  I feel with the determination and support this family member will make it through any challenge that comes their way. It is taking the first steps that can be scary and make a person question themselves and who they are.  To question oneself is questing your whole existence and not being honest with oneself is living a complete lie.  I feel when people recognize an issue/problem and make that change; it shows the start of a new development in their life.  These steps are to make a better life for themselves and for those around them.  I know the road will be rough for them but at the end of this journey; they will be okay.  I have a tendency to say that a lot when things get rough "everything will be okay/alright".  I know it will.... I trust in God that things will be alright, especially for my family member.  

        Alas, I am doing this because my family member inspired me to do something that will make a difference in 30-days.  Now as I am writing this; I am getting hung up on the spelling errors and grammar.  That is my flaw when I write, I want to edit and correct right away.  I have to tell myself do not do that and that the editing process will come later on.  I know challenges can be good and a positive experience and I am determined to blog all this for you to read.  I may even get bold and keep myself accountable by posting this challenge on TikTok.  Who knows what the possibilities will have in store with this 30-day challenge.  I am hoping while I am writing this book that I stay positive, and finish what I have started.  I know there will be times where I am not going to want to finish or write but I must push through.

    I know this is a big challenge for myself due to the fact that I wrote stories before, and I get halfway through just to feel tapped out. Sometimes I feel that I can't get myself to write about sadness or depression as well. I have suffered over the last few years with depression/anxiety and a ton of sadness.  So, I find it hard for me to put these emotions into words.  But I am determined to do it because I want the story that I am going to tell to touch others.  

I am going to leave this post with this one question for anyone who is reading.  What is a challenge that you want to achieve?  I hope if you do a challenge that it is a positive change or impact on you.  

Thanks again for reading this and have a magical day. 

Today's a New Day!!! Make the Most of it.

     Here in Tennessee mountains the weather is perfect for a fall day.  Cool, breezy, cloudy and calm. this end of November morning.  Took the pups for a walk before I start my work at home activities. Which takes up most of my day of course. This calmness will not stay for long and that reason is that soon Christmas will be here and out of towners will come to spend Christmas and New Years in the area.  But I am not taking for granted the quietness around my neighborhood right now. 

    All of the leaves are off the trees which when I lived in NC; most of the trees would be in the process of changing color.  This year I feel like fall came early to the TN mountains.  Most of the leaves fell off the middle of November.  I just can't believe it is the 30th of November already.  Thanksgiving is done and Christmas is in full swing.  

     As for Christmas this year, I am drilling in my head to stay on a budget.  This is due to the fact that there is an up most important bill that is coming due in my household.  It is hard to budget but I keep telling myself there will be plenty of Christmases where you can splurge a little more than this year, and paying your mortgage is the most important. So, a budgeted Christmas this year is so needed.  I am only getting two gifts for each person on my list this year.  Reasonably priced of course.  But I will keep whomever reads this in the loop on how the budgeting goes.  I honestly think shipping is what is going to hurt this year because how expensive gas prices are. Majority of my shopping will be Walmart (I think); because Amazon to me sucks due to the fact that they say two-day shipping, but it will be a week. I also think that where I am located causes issues as well. Yet, what annoys me most is that Amazon will hold your money for three days and it drops off on the fourth day; causing you to think there is something wrong with your order.  I have more Amazon stories but that will be for another day.

    As for making the most of my day, well I am working from home. During the slow period of my job; I am now developing a story idea.  I have two in the works right now.  Supposedly, that is normal for any writer who is cultivating a story idea or novel.  I do want to write something that is meaningful and will help people.  So that in itself is taking some time.  I do have a ton of story outlines on my desk and a journal; so, once a sentence or inspiration hits.... I will write it down.   I am really excited about this story idea that I am working on, and I pray every night to God to inspire me more and help me write this story.  With God's help; I know the story will be meaningful to others.  

    So, for as to making the most of my day; I really try to stay on top of the household chores, but I will be honest with you they are boring.  But what can I say, I am bless with a home and keeping it clean and tidy is part of having a house or apartment.  Well, nothing more for today.... thanks for reading my ramblings.  Have a good one.

Let's try this Blogging thing again.....and again.

    I know I said it before and now I will say it again.  I am going to take the next year and develop my writing skills and be consistent with this blog.  It is just said that I have not continued with this since starting this back in 2017.  I figured that this would benefit me in my life and improve my writing skills.  I love writing and reading but my lack of focus has contributed to my procrastination.  I guess this is the lessons that I had to learn over the past few years.  I am sad that it took me so long to get back in the habit of again.....restarting this blog.  The lessons in life, faith, and the road over the years will be quite interesting to some, but maybe not to others.  

    Over the past 5 years there has been a lot of struggles in my life.  So "Blogging" was not my top proity and neither was writing.  I have always loved to write and excelled in my writing skills.  Yet, my passion for writing was lacking. I am sure it was the depression and loss that I was feeling, and which contributed to this.    I am hoping to change this right now.  I am also hoping that this will help me become a better writer in the long run.  

    Honestly, I am not sure who this blog will reach anyone or help anyone.  I just know the more I will write about my life and feelings; it will make me a better writer and person in the long run.

I hope whoever reads this that life hasn't been too hard and that you are well.  Hopefully more to come.  

New Day....New Plan...New Changes.

Well, my promise to blog more is not being kept but I am hoping that will change.  I have no excuses...none.  Life just got ahead of itself....work.....classes....bills...etc.  Just life in general just got in the way and kept me from blogging.

But new day....new plans...new changes....

I had to put that meme in to this post.

Alas,  things have been crazy since January 2019.  But I am going to get back on track because I think it will help me physically, emotionally, and mentally.  I have come to the conclusion that if I do not push myself to do better then no one will.  I think I struggled which caused me to have a small breakdown. I kept blaming myself and others for the goals that I did not achieve.  This thinking was wrong.....very wrong....

So where do the changes come in......I am starting to seek God's help....I am starting to pray more with my heart and not just with my mind.  I am going to get back on track with my diet and exercise.  I am going to lean more on family and friends and reach out to them when I need advice or help (more for the advice on things though).  I just feel to get out of a bad situation that I need to change my perspective and do what is right.....for myself.

 I have one life and I need to live it...and not let the stress get to me anymore.  The stress was making me depressed and I did not want to leave the house.  Plus,  health wise I was sick all the time and always in pain.  I was hiding this from everyone and myself.

Alas, I will end this post right here.  Tomorrow or tonight I think I will start doing some catch up.  I think I will blog about my trip to NYC....even though it was two years ago.  I think it will be an interesting read.....with pictures.

Also, I have started a Youtube Channel....or restarted......the URL is https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCFnXJGcJfZHlaZM27XsCFOg

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My Instagram is @lismar1978

Thanks for reading.....L

So it has been awhile.......

So it has been a while since my last post.......a whole year almost.  I did not live up to my commitment  of blogging as much as I should.  Life got in the way.....I know lame excuse.  This is for a good reason though.......

Over this past year I have started taking photography classes via New York Institute of Photography.  The classes are only and they are very informative.  I have acquired a real professional camera with the help of my parents (they gifted it to me for my bday); which I love and I am still learning on how to use it.  I love my parent so much and the faith they have for me.  I am dedicated to my classes and I graduate in 2020.  I will also get my Professional Photographer's Certificate.  So wish me luck.

I also got a part time job to go with my full time job.  I will keep the company's name safe for right now but this part time job helped me focus on my passion of photograph.  My full time job is also great and I will tell you why within this post.

My year was pretty boring but I have seen many Marvel movies and continued to work on my diet.  In June I went to see my parents for a mini vacation with Scott and Princess Leia (my puppy).  We had a great time and enjoyed some time with my parents.

In July, my uncle passed away and my father and I went to New Jersey to be with my family.  Even though  it was a sad event; I am glad I went to be there for my dad and my aunt.  I will try to keep in contact with my aunt more then before.  Family is an important thing.

In August, I suffered an accident with my shoulder.  Not going to go into details on what happen, but I can tell you my shoulder got disconnected in my sleep.  It did go back into place but it tore my rotator cuff slightly, tore the upper bicep tendon, and my shoulder alignment was slightly off. I was out of both jobs for a week and received a shot of cortisone.  I thought the problem was solved.....I was wrong and the problem continued.   I did not complain too much but I did not listen to my doctor when he put me wanted me out from August to October 5th.  I went to work at my full time job during that time with a sling.

In September, I had my birthday and turn 40.  I will write about my feelings about being the big 4-0 in a future blog.  I will try and keep this blog thing going.  I promise.

In October, I went back to the doctor and he told me I had to make a decision about my shoulder.  I can take another Cortisone shot or have surgery.  I took the shot but started to have a bad allergic reaction.  Mind you....I have been on steroids since August......and now this is October.  My sugar level went through the roof along with my blood pressure.  I started to have rage.....in which Scott started calling "B**chy Marie".  I decided to have surgery....I could no longer take any more steroid medication and stop taking the steroids all together.  This was after a doctor's visit to my primary care physician.  I had decided to have my surgery November 14th.  Enough time to put any paperwork in my full time job and get my stuff in order best that I can.

At the end of October my father was in the hospital.  I will not state the issue but rest assure he is fine.  I had to take off and travel up to help out.  I was happy to do so and thank God that my job was kind enough to allow me to go. I do work at the best place of employment and everyone is so kind.  Both jobs are great......and I thank God for my blessings.  Anyway, I stayed up in Gatlinburg to help my mom and dad out.  Once I got back from Gatlinburg;  I focused on working non-stop till November 13th (the day before my surgery).

On November 14th, I had my shoulder surgery.  It took about an hour and a half to fix everything.  I woke up forgetting that I was in the hospital and dreaming about ice cream.  I am out of work till January 2019.....basically six weeks.    Part of the healing process has me going to physical therapy.  I go two times a week for an hour; along with doing at home exercises.  To be honest the surgery was not so bad but the physical therapy is a beast. I am doing my best to do the exercises and staying positive.  I know this is a day by day process and it is not easy. 

So basically this is a catch up summary of my 2018 year.  I may touch upon things in details in later blogs but till then this is a summary.  In whole......I can not wait till 2018 is over and look forward to blogging more and for 2019. 

Whomever is reading this I hope you are blessed and well.

No 7 Facial Set

I received this facial set from my boyfriend's mom.  Just wanted to share it and let anyone who reads this know that his is a good product.  Not sure where she got it but I love it. 

The set is made up of the following:

• 1 x 1 Oz No7 Beautiful Skin Cleansing Water
• 1 x .5 Oz No7 Beautiful Skin Radiance Exfoliator
• 1 x 3.3 Oz No7 Beautiful Skin Hydration Mask
• 1 x .84 Oz No7 Beautiful Skin Day Cream Normal/Dry
• 1 x .84 Oz No7 Beautiful Skin Night Cream Normal/Dry

My face feels soft, radiant, and renewed.  Figured I would pass this along in case someone is looking for a facial set.

My Mom's Chilli Recipe

I made my mom's chili recipe yesterday and it was great.  I needed a high fiber meal that is warm and filling.  I am not much of a person who makes things from scratch but this crock pot recipe was worth every bite.  

Here it is:

1 pound of meat  (I used turkey. Which for me is good because of the protein in it).
3 cans of Bushes Chili Beans Mild.
2 cans Demonte Diced tomatoes. Get the cans with the oregano, garlic, and basil.
1 can of tomato soup.
1/2 teaspoon of garlic powder.  
1/2 teaspoon of onion powder.
1/2 teaspoon of paprika.
1 teaspoon of chili powder.
Salt and pepper.

Put the meat in a skillet and brown.  This will take about ten minutes.  Drain the meat and throw it in the crock pot. Add the three cans of beans, 2 cans of diced tomatoes, and tomato soup.  Stir.  Then add the garlic powder, onion powder, paprika, and the chili powder.  Stir.  I cooked mine from 11 am to about 4:40 pm on high.  So about 5 hours is fine.  I also topped mine off with shredded sharp cheese or toping of your choice.

I know the next time I make the chili; I am going to add corn and red kidney beans for color.  Hope whoever makes this enjoys it.

Happy New Year

Happy New Year Everyone....

Figured I would write a short post before heading to bed.  I began this post with a meme....lol....I am trying to get myself to laugh more. 

I do hope your evening is amazing and that whomever is reading this is staying safe.  Please do not drink and drive....nor drink, drive, and text.  If you had too much either stay where you are or call an Uber or ask a friend to take you home.

Well....enough with my PSA.....Scott, Princess Leia and I stayed home and watched a few movies.  I did my nails and did a facial.  I will write about the product that was gifted to me by Scott's mom.  It is really an amazing product that is making my face smooth and soft.

But other then that....pretty much a dull evening......I hope everyone has amazing night....see you later.

So It Begins......

Hello World....It is me.......Lisa.  I figured I would start this blog (and I have been meaning to do so for sometime now).  Not sure what to put but I am looking into doing a few things in the new year and beyond.  This like working on my mind, body, spiritual relationship with God, and work on my relationship with others.  By no means am I saying I am a rotten person but I am looking to be a better person all around.

As for an introduction.....well....I am from New Jersey....lived there for about 28.5 some years. I lived with my loving parents, my brother, and my grandmother who passed on when I was 15.

 Life in New Jersey  was surround by a few friends, beaches, and my love of going to Dave Matthews Band concerts and constant playing DMB over and over again.  I enjoyed my time with going to college and work while living in NJ.  My weekends consisted of  hanging out at Starbucks, the mall, or the movies.  I loved the times in NJ where I would go to Starbucks and meet up with some friends to  play Uno or venture into the mall. Usually, we would go to the music store or  and head straight for the bookstore (that was a size of a dining room).  I would sit on the floor with my mocha whatever...and smell the freshness of a good book.  I would either purchase or just browse the rows.  Once the mall closed it was usually time to go home or to a friends house.....Yes,  I know....such a boring beginning to this blog, yet if you bear with me...I will write about having gastric sleeve surgery,  my humble existence in NC,  and a trip of a life time to New York where I got to stay with my cousin (De) and her family.  I will also talk about my exercising....my love of all things Christmas......etc...you get the picture.  LOL

 I will write about my unhealthy obsession with all things Star Wars, Marvel and of course playing Assassin's Creed games. Of course....I will write about my trips to Gatlinburg, TN and to where ever God may take me.